Typical Pastor's Wife I Am Not

Growing up in church, I was always intimidated by the pastor and his family.  They always seemed to have it all together.  The pastor would get up there each week and preach while his wife usually played the piano (except when I went to a Church of Christ church for a while in high school), and the kids were well behaved until teenage years when they rebelled.  Being a stereotypical PK.  Why is that?  Was there too much religion at home?  They rebelled against their parents' but in the whole picture, they rebelled against God.

If you have read any of my older posts, you know that I did not marry a pastor.  We were 12 years into our marriage before we started the church that David currently pastors.  It was about 9 years into the marriage that he started saying, "I feel the Lord is calling me to the ministry."  Reading older posts, you also would know that I did NOT feel that way.  Fighting God and my husband saying, "You have lost your mind.  I am NOT called to be a pastor's wife!!!!"  Boy, was I wrong in my thinking.

The Lord has done a mighty work in my heart.  When we move out of the way and allow God to grow us, He is able to accomplish such wonderful blessings in your life.  There is a reason the Lord does not reveal to us His plan but I sure wish I knew back then what I know now.  I might not have been so reluctant.  But, I also know that I HAD to go through that struggle.  It was His way of teaching me to trust Him as Lord and Savior.  If I knew the outcome, even if it was good, I would not have grown in my spiritual walk. 

I am a sinner.  I sin EVERY day.  Am I proud of it?  Absolutely NOT.  David preached on Romans 1:27-32 this morning.  The title of the message was "What is your besetting sin?"  Beloved, you and I both struggle with sins mentioned in these scripture passages. 

Romans 1:29-31 says:

²⁹ being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers, ³⁰ backbiters, haters of God, violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, ³¹ undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerciful; 

 

 

How many of these do I struggle with?  More than I would like to admit!  Powerful message.  Hits me hard and makes me want to cry.  That is what the Word of God is supposed to do to us.  Either we accept it as truth or we can rebel against it.

 

We have grace in that we do not have to stay in our sin.  If we are in Jesus Christ; if we believe that God sent His Son to die on the cross to forgive us of our sin then we can have eternal life.  We can have faith in that!

 

So, I cannot play the piano.  I do not have it all together.  I fall every day and sometimes on my knees in prayer!  I just pray the Lord finds me faithful!

 

God Bless You!