Words in Anger

Growing up in the way I did, I was not taught the biblical way to handle things- situations, emotions, surroundings.  I was a girl and along with that came a time when emotions would run rampant.  I was the oldest of 2, and I had a sister.  So, my poor father had to deal with 3 raging hormones at one time or another in our teens.  Without words, I was taught that it was OK to throw a fit or say things in anger.  I thought, "I am a girl and this is how it is."

Well, getting married to the wonderful man God had for me, showed me that "I" wasn't the center of the universe and "I" did not always get my way.  I was to control my emotions and not control my husband.  It was a HARD lesson and I will admit, I did not like it at all.  It wasn't until I truly allowed God to get a hold onto my life that I really began to see my sin.  I did not see myself as sinning.  I tried to justified my behavior.  I would say things when I wasn't feeling well and with my selfish pride kept me from feeling bad about my behavior and if I didn't see myself as sinning I sure wasn't going to ask for forgiveness and repent from my transgressions.

Why is it that we let our emotions get the best of us? Why is it that we react instead of act?  Why must we even show others our emotions?  Society has made us such a "it's-all-about-me" people that I fear we have lost our way.  It's what I want, when I want it, how I want it, and no one can tell me different.  That is not Christian.

We are to die to self.  That is a foreign concept to so many people.  It was to me!  I learned that lesson far late in life.  I pray my children will learn it early.  I pray for my children's future spouses now, Lord, that they may be perfectly paired.  My husband complements me, not with words but spiritually.  I pray I may, "Bless him in the gates."  I pray I never use anger as an excuse ever again.  Yeah, I may sin, but Lord, please show me my sin that I may ask forgiveness and repent.